Other important things in my life


My Master is very important to me and I love him very much. I want to devote my life to him, give him everything he needs. I want to be his property, his slave. I think I’m better in doing those things when I take good care of myself and feel good about myself. Only then I can serve him properly and make him happy. Besides serving him I still have other goals in life and other things I love to do. Continue reading

Be careful what you wish for: me versus Single tail

Last night my Master was in one of his sadistic moods. He asked me for a pencil sharpener, so I started searching the whole house and finally found one in my make-up stash. So I really thought he needed it for a pencil….but no. He put me on bed on my hands and knees and cuffed my hands together. Between my super sensitive thighs he put a skewer…and yes, he sharpened both ends. (I’ll make sure I get rid off all my sharpeners) He told me to keep it there and started flogging my ass. Ouch! The flogging didn’t hurt that much, but that skewer was driving me nuts. That shitty little thing hurt like hell. After some flogging he made me suck his cock and I really started to think that he was going to fuck me with that skewer still between my thighs. (Oh God!) Fortunately he didn’t, but he started flogging me again… a bit harder this time. After a while he sat down next to me on the bed…and stroked my back a little…and then it happened. I relaxed for a moment and I dropped the skewer. I really hate it when I do something wrong. I really didn’t mean to drop it, but I did…. and I knew I would be punished for it. Even before my punishment I was already shaking and crying… I absolutely hate it to disappoint him. He told me to lay on my back… legs wide open. I knew where this was going. He was going to flog my cunt. I really can’t take much pain on my pussy and I was really afraid. I just couldn’t lay still, freaking out about what was going to happen. He told me to close my eyes and lay still. I tried. He hit me hard on my upper leg. I screamed and he hit me again and again. 3 hard strokes on my already sensitive upper legs and thighs, but thank God not on my cunt. He told me to go back in position again and put the skewer right back in place. Arghhh I really hated that thing! Continue reading

Shoe addict

My Master always wants me to wear nice clothes and shoes. When we’re inside the house, most of the time he allows me to walk around bare foot, but when we go out I have to wear high heels. For me, that isn’t punishment at all! I love high heels. I’ve always liked shoes… when I’m shopping for clothes, I usually and up with a new pair of shoes. Boots and sandals with high heels are my favourites. Continue reading

Ikea nipple protectors!

fixa-stick-on-floor-protectors-set-of-__28716_PE098859_S4Two weeks ago my Master was whipping my breasts with the single tail and by accident ( yeah right!) the whip smashed my nipple. Most of the time I can handle some pain and I’m becoming more and more masochistic, but this was too much! My nipples are often very sensitive, I absolutely hate it when Master put clamps on them or bites them hard. Even when he’s just stroking them softly…I don’t like it. Touching my nipples and breasts just doesn’t turn me on and often it hurts. Continue reading

Frustrations: I have a Leatherbutt!


Recently I read about the phenomenon called ‘leatherbutt’. When you’re frequently spanked, your skin becomes a little intolerant for bruising and harder hitting is necessary to leave marks. I don’t know whether this theory is correct…but I think I’m born with a leatherbutt! I actually never bruise…and that kinda sucks!  Continue reading

Painslut or not?

Singletail whip

My friend and enemy

I’ve always liked the idea of being ‘hurt’ in some way by scary (but handsome) men. Even as a child I had fantasies of being kidnapped and tortured. (Besides those fantasies I was actually a pretty normal child…) When I started to experiment with bdsm I realised that getting whipped in your fantasy doesn’t actually hurt that much, but damn… in real! Do I really like this? Well, since my previous boyfriends weren’t that dominant or sadistic after all… those experiments didn’t last long.  Fortunately (or unfortunately) for me, I met a very sadistic man about a year ago…. And nowadays I’m His. Continue reading

Things that make me happy

things that make me happy

There are a lot of things in our relationship that make me very happy. The best thing is we’re never equals, but we can still have a lot of fun together. Of course there are rules, I have to address him properly and obey all the time… (most of the time I love that, sometimes it sucks…) but are relationship is still very relaxed.  Continue reading